Day 21 :: Savor the pink light
Mieke Krynauw wrote to me from South Africa:"I’ve attached a poem I wrote this morning in which I try to grapple a little with the idea of what I’m trying to achieve in my life – as a person, as a daughter, as a lawyer working to protect and uphold the rights of all who live in South Africa found in our awe inspiring Constitution.
In winter in Johannesburg the air is dry and the sunsets are my reason for making sure I leave work to catch the moment when an otherwise ugly city suddenly turns into a seething mass of pink – pink light everywhere. It is fast and fleeting and I love it. Yesterday driving home I tried to savour every moment of it – even though I was stuck in traffic – and it gave me the start of my poem.
Thanks for helping to make me more aware."
This is the absolutely gorgeous poem she wrote:
This love/hate city of mine
Is slowly enveloped in the murky pink light
Of the ending of day
Every day ends in Jozi
And perhaps today
Mine ends.
I slept a little later than usual
Got the ratio of milk to tea strength
Just right
Let the taxi driver cut in front of me
And didn’t even hoot
Remembered to slow down sufficiently
To let the robot change to red
Which allowed me to buy Homeless Talk
From the man whose name I do not know
I included personal email writing
In my To Do list
Phoned my mother mid-afternoon
Just to say I love you
(A daily ritual of adult life that should be factored in by all employers)
Told my forever friends I love them
Told my new friends I look forward to loving them
Read section ten as a preamble to everything I did
Removed myself sufficiently to think legally
Engaged myself sufficiently to be a person
Wrote a small masterpiece in my memo
Didn’t get around to finishing the half-read article on my desk
I left work at just the right time
Enjoyed making supper
Wished I’d remembered to buy garlic for the sauce
Put off doing the laundry until the morning
Read a little, laughed a little
I crawled into bed, kissed you goodnight
fell asleep.
Tomorrow the grief of day 38
will envelope you
but know that tomorrow was why I lived today.
-Mieke Krynauw
How beautiful, Mieke. "Removed myself sufficiently to think legally / Engaged myself sufficiently to be a person" is perfect in its simple assessment of what we do every day, some days more effectively than others, some days with less skin left on the ground. The simplicity of your last day is beautiful, getting the ratio of milk to tea strength just right.
A copy of Life is a Verb will be mailed this week to you, from here to there with love.
(If you’d like to answer the question, "What would I be doing today if I only had 37 days to live?", please do–and email it to me. One will be posted each day until the official publication date of Life is a Verb on September 2nd).