I realised I couldn’t answer this question easily because there are too many variables and too many unknowns about that last day or even the days beforehand. However I can imagine how I would like to be feeling on my last day. I have expressed that in the poem below. Above all else I want to be able to say goodbye to my husband, my children and the rest of my family and friends. I need them to know how important they are to me and how much they have enriched my life.

Let’s make every day count

Making today count

My last breath is close.
With it my physical presence in this beautiful land,
the land of my heart and soul,
will cease.

But
I will still be here.
I will live on because of how I lived and what I did.
I have made sure of that.
I have done all I needed to do,
I even surprised myself.

I have:
expressed my love openly,
lived my life honestly,
laughed,
cried,
been there for others,
respected everyone for who they are, as they are,
helped and supported as needed.
I have no regrets.
I have taught what I know
and learnt what I didn’t.
I have shared what I had to give
and received so much more in return.
I have lived in a way that has expressed the essence of me.

I leave you with memories
should I fade in your mind.
My journals.
My writing.
My photos.
My online artifacts.
My handiwork.
Messages as reminders.
The stories of my life.

Living in the moment.
Our gift to each other.
Experiencing all life throws us.
Catching it,
holding it close.
Perfect in its imperfection.

Here I am ready to leave
In an ordinary moment
On an ordinary day
Creating something uniquely extraordinary.